Time, time

The title of a recent sermon at my church was “In the fullness of time”. When the title flashed up on the screen above the pastor’s head as he began, an hourglass appeared as well. The main thrust of the sermon was that Jesus’ birth in Bethlehem wasn’t a result of happenstance or a change of plan on God’s part, but the culmination of God’s delicately orchestrated eternal plan to send salvation to us. Pastor Troy had barely begun when his first point struck me as significant. You see, since my last birthday, I’ve had moments of angst. Somehow, the number associated with that birthday has been the periodic cause of an urgent ticking sound in my head, one that reminds me that with each day my time here on earth is winding down. It’s not that I’m ill or decrepit, and because of my Hope in Jesus, I’m not fearful, but yet, I’m just seeing life in all its finite glory more than ever before. I recognize that my own hour glass has a dwindling supply of sand in the top, and I’d been considering that as an indication that my time was running out. Expired! Kaput!

But that’s not how the sermon went. From Troy’s perspective, the diminishing supply of sand in the top of the hourglass doesn’t indicate that the time is over, but instead it celebrates completion. Accomplished!  Completed! When the preparation hourglass ran out and Jesus appeared as a child in the manger, it was a new beginning, not an end.  Again, years later when He was in agony hanging on a cross and whispered “It is finished” as the last grains in THAT hourglass dropped, there was cause for celebration of a job well done.

What a refreshing perspective, especially for a person (like me) who needs to feel as if each day has seen me accomplish something and who adores making lists so that I can check off completed tasks and measure how far I’ve come.  What an encouraging way to approach the days ahead. The urgency I feel can be channeled from trepidation and a little nagging dread to joy and determination and hope that I can use each moment, each grain of sand, to add to my preparations for what comes next. And what will come next? No more hourglasses, just an eternity with God. 

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And Shepherds once more

Have you ever wondered why it was shepherds that first got the news of Jesus’ birth?  Honestly, until Karl (my husband) made an off-hand observation about it to me recently, I never really questioned it. I just assumed that shepherds were pretty lowly and had no great status in society, and since God wanted to be sure everyone understood He was sending Salvation to the whole world, they were a convenient choice.

Karl’s observation is this:  who else would you announce the coming of the Lamb of God to but shepherds?  Huh. Lamb of God.  Shepherds.   Oh, I get it! 

Shepherds would understand better than anyone else. They had lots of experience with lambs. In the early spring, they’d be up all night checking on the ewes, counting and caring for the new babies on the ground, keeping them warm and protected. They’d be vigilant and determined with the ones that had been rejected while keeping their eyes out for needy ones as well as the healthy ones. As the babies grew, the shepherds would be entertained by the awkward and gangly frolicking of the lambs through the summer. (Watch a couple of Youtubes and you’ll see how endearing their jumping and bumping and kicking and running is.) Always, the shepherds would be observing, protecting, nurturing those lambs along with the rest of the flock. It was their job, their livelihood depended on doing it well. 

Perhaps, though their hands were rough and the skin on their noses tanned and leathered by their lifestyle, just perhaps the hearts of these tough men stayed especially soft for those perfect lambs in the herd. Maybe, while they stroked and fed them as they grew, and as they watched them carefully to make sure they didn’t get into the brambles or take any risk with their perfection, maybe they fell a little in love with them precisely because they were highly aware what these little guys were destined for.  Jerusalem is only twenty miles north of Bethlehem. Sacrificing a perfect, year-old lamb was required for each family under the law.  Without doubt, these shepherds knew the future of the perfect lambs they fostered.

Who better, then, to hear the Good News of God’s Grace than men who already understood the deeper context of a perfect sacrificial Lamb’s arrival to the people? Who better to welcome Him than them? Well, I’ve not lived that life, but because I have the gift of perspective and can see the whole story, from the Lamb’s birth – to His Crucifixion – to His saving Resurrection – and because I have the Hope of Jesus’ return, then I can put myself in those shepherd’s shoes and welcome the birth of the Perfect Lamb, come for me! (and you, too!) 

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And there were shepherds…

   Of all the players in the Christmas story, the shepherds are my favorite.  If I could go back in time and shadow anyone involved that night, I’d hang out with the shepherds.  For just that one evening, I wish I’d have been with them.

   First: the night.  Cold, wintery, fresh air makes the stars in the velvet darkness vivid and close.  No light pollution. Can you even imagine what the stars looked like?  Then, add to that a new, bright star.  Unexplained. Perhaps they felt a bit apprehensive when it appeared, not exactly sure what it meant, but unable to take their eyes off its twinkling beauty. 

   Can you picture those men? One, sitting with his back against a rock, is wrapped tightly in a blanket with his toes and nose frosty (low temps in Bethlehem in the winter hover in the low forties). Another hums quietly to himself, thinking of the girl he met on his last trip into town. Another one is strolling calmly through the dark, making sure all the sheep are safely bedded down.

   Then blam! A creature – stark white and shining –  appears, hovering just overhead, but near enough. It is magnificent, imposing, unfathomable.  The men’s eyes are riveted on him, their hearts pounding.  These are fellows who can routinely vanquish the hyena, the wild dog, the lion that accosts their sheep, but now, in this moment, their legs are water, hands are shaking, voices falter.  They stare. Then a voice like they’ve never heard before. Quiet but commanding, warm yet icy. “Don’t be afraid.”

Yeah. Right. But, really, there’s something in the timbre of his greeting that steadies the pulse and fills each soul with peace they’ve never imagined.  “I bring you good tidings and great joy for everyone.” Everyone?  Even a lonely, lowly, uneducated, and smelly shepherd?  The question doesn’t linger. As the night around them shimmers with iridescence they know, they feel that the words are true.

   They glance at each other as they listen, shy smiles, shoulders and fists relax.  They are all on their feet now standing shoulder to shoulder, as this heavenly being tells them the Christ has come. Then, just when they’ve begun to believe their own eyes are actually seeing this extravagantly beautiful angel in front of them, dozens more appear.  A song begins above their heads then permeates the night and their souls.  By the second chorus, the shepherds know the words and the tune, they dance with abandon, joining the choir in praising God. It is the most simple and the most complicated moment of their lives. Pure joy, perfect faith, complete gratitude.

   I can’t help but think that the angels lingered, singing and dancing their praise, treasuring their time with these mortal men, these precious first-to-knows. Later, when the sky was once again black and the music faded, perhaps the shepherds still felt like dancing. There’s no doubt they couldn’t sit down. No one was drowsy or bored or cold. They looked at each other and decided in one heartbeat what they’d do next. With certainty that the sheep would be tended from above for a while, they took off running for town, anxious to find this promised Child.  It didn’t take them long, I’m certain. At the door of the stable, they hesitated.  They straightened their tunics and smoothed their hair.  They each took a deep breath, then went to meet their Savior.

   In the Bible, we don’t know the shepherd’s names, we never meet them again outside of Luke two.  Yet, I can’t help but be certain of one thing. That night changed them. I’m sure they still had struggles, tick bites, cold toes. They had normal lives. Except – their normal lives had been made extraordinary thanks to a battalion of the Heavenly Host and a Savior that came first to them that night. Troubles were forever put into perspective because of what they’d experienced. My prayer this Christmas for you and for myself is that life’s struggles will always be overshadowed by the gift of Salvation Jesus brings us.

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Not if…

In the past I have skimmed over these two verses in 1 Peter 4:12-13:

Do not be surprised by the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange is happening to you. But rejoice that you are sharing in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when His glory is revealed. 

I skimmed over it for one main reason, I felt that no matter what I was going through, it couldn’t be important enough or spiritual enough to qualify as ‘sharing in the sufferings of Christ.’  Thinking this way made the passage somehow irrelevant for me. Lately though, I’ve begun seeing things a bit differently. I’ve come to realize that there are times that my difficulties stem not from my own bad choices, nor my own pride, nor my own sin, but because I have been identified as a follower of Christ. (I write this with humble trepidation and be assured that I only come to this thought after lots of prayer, confession, and self-examination and with the full admission that I could be wrong at any time).  In this light, then, there are times that problems come to me as a result of my faith and the stand for Jesus that I take. 

Okay, then NOW these two verses speak to me, and they give me peace.  Peace first off because they remind me I am not alone.  Jesus suffered horribly on the cross (and I realize that for me, any sort of physical martyrdom is highly unlikely). However. He also suffered when He was mocked and ridiculed. Jesus hurt when He was misunderstood (intentionally and in ignorance). He agonized when those He had come to save just didn’t get it.  It is because of those moments that I have peace.  Second, I have peace because of one word in 1 Peter 4:13 – that small word: when.  The verse doesn’t say we might be overjoyed if Jesus finds a path to glory.  It says we will be overjoyed WHEN His glory is revealed.  How amazing!  How comforting!  How beautiful to know that when I am in hard times because of my faith in Jesus, nothing is tentative, nothing is contingent.  When the time comes, I will be overjoyed. Knowing this gives me strength and hope, and allows me to rejoice today, in this moment, and under these hard circumstances.

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Cancel culture?

Being savvy about someone’s feelings and moderating behavior based on anticipating how someone will react can and usually is, in fact, a judicious act. I know a messy kitchen counter bugs my husband and I try to avoid leaving it cluttered when I can. I’m afraid of dogs and a friend of mine has three.  When I go to her house, before she opens the door, she puts the dogs away.  I have a conservative friend who has a very liberal sister.  When they get together or chat on the phone, they (mostly) agree to honor each other by steering away from the most hot button issues between them.  Prudence, kindness, and respect in action. Good choices.

Somehow, this social accommodation is currently on the decline.

Years ago, we had a lesbian couple as neighbors.  I liked them both. They liked us.  We spent time together – shared meals, visited each other’s homes, helped each other out when we could. For many years after we moved from that house, we exchanged Christmas cards. I counted them my friends, and I believe the sentiment was returned.  In that relationship, I remained faithful to my beliefs, and I assume my neighbors weren’t much changed by my faith or my lifestyle choices, but because of mutual respect we could find common ground and enjoy the friendship.

That was years ago when tolerance and civility were much more in fashion.

Today differences are unallowable.  It seems that differing opinions are unpalatable and even the inkling that someone might disagree requires evasion, not accommodation. Today, it is acceptable to avoid and even cancel someone because you refuse to hear them or give them an opportunity at being gracious.  Or worse, acknowledge that a differing outlook is viable.  Giving up a relationship because of differing outlooks is a tragedy.  It is mean and hurtful, and it is detrimental to both the cancellee and the cancelor.   

Detrimental? Yes. Refusing to embrace the act of respectful accommodation and the welcoming of other ideas and opinions – be that of one’s religion, or sexuality, party affiliation, or any other difference –  hurts each individual and our society.  Shunning and effectively silencing opposing voices and cancelling any threat of hearing those voices robs everyone of the chance to grow because it takes away the ability to hear and consider a differing opinion. Respect is sacrificed. Growth is stunted. To shut out or shut up other than homogeneous voices creates narrow, judgmental minds.   

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reprise

Last week I posted a blog about a high school employee in Florida who felt “attacked” by a Bible verse written on someone else’s assigned parking place at school. It would seem that how I explained my point was offensive to at least one reader who misunderstood my reaction to the story and was chagrined that I was somehow happy that something bad had happened to another person. Consequently, I removed that post. Since then, I’ve spent a lot of time considering how to make my point more clear. So… here’s my second try:

 I can’t help but wonder why words from I Corinthians posted on a parking place were so very perilous for this woman. This verse isn’t judgmental, it isn’t militant, it isn’t a call to action.  It is simply an “I” statement of fact for believers. “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”   

Let’s propose a different scenario:  Let’s say that the person assigned that school parking place, instead of posting that verse posted something else: Namaste.  Black Lives Matter. My Body, My Choice. F*** You.  I wonder if any of these would have triggered that same woman in the same way. Would she have complained or felt unsafe as a result? Would she have felt attacked?  I wonder.  We are constantly barraged with slogans– spray painted on walls, on protest signs, on bumper stickers, on t-shirts. Most people simply read them and pass on by. I do. Each of the above possible slogans has a degree of offense to me attached to it, yet they don’t beset me or make me unsafe.  The question then, is what is it about this sentence that assailed this woman?

The answer to me is easy, and it is reassuring.  Let me explain.  Easy: it’s clear to me that these words are powerful because they are GOD’S WORDS. They come from the Creator of the Universe. The Bible itself has a ton of verses that claim and explain this power:  2 Timothy 3:16 says that “All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.”  So there – right there is the explanation of why a verse written on pavement can produce a powerful response. Those are words from God, words that have a function and use. Hebrews 4:12 continues the story by telling us,  “For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires.”  Whoa!  Here’s the explanation of why the woman responded as she did – the words touched her.  The words touch us deep inside. The words convict us and encourage us to consider and hopefully acknowledge the sovereignty of our LIVING GOD.

Which brings me to why I am reassured: The fact that she experienced a strong reaction to some spray paint on asphalt is clear proof to me that Hebrews is right in asserting that “the word of God is alive”, and by extension, it is proof to me that I serve a LIVING GOD who is continually active and desiring a relationship with us, even in today’s wicked world.

So, finally, my ultimate point: John 3:16 tells us that God loved the world so much that he gave us Jesus to take on and pay for our sin – giving us a reason to live the earthly life we have and giving us a hope for an eternal future. It seems obvious that God’s desire is for us, all of us, to trust Him and be saved.  One of the ways that He accomplishes that is with His word. 

Back to the lady in Florida.  In fact, yes, I am happy that she felt attacked by a Bible verse written on a parking space because I do not think that what she felt is a bad thing.  Being convicted – God seeking her, and her being touched by the word of God – is never a bad thing, and it gives her the opportunity to react to God’s word and God Himself. My hope and my prayer for her is that she will investigate her inner feelings and explore her reaction and that that journey will bring her to Him. 

“For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek.” Romans 1:16 

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The Power of the Word of God

The blog I posted here on Monday was badly said and didn’t convey what I wanted to say. I was trying, albeit not as eloquently as I’d like, to celebrate that words written two thousand plus years ago can still rouse something in us to, hopefully, lead us all to the Truth.

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First Pres Women’s luncheon November 11

Thank you to the First Presbyterian Women for inviting me to your luncheon yesterday! Lunch was terrific, and I enjoyed very much meeting you all and sharing a bit about writing and Wyoming history!
Thank you Brandy Selfridge for helping me.

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And the story continues…

Just released!!!

     Just days after the armistice ending World War 1 is signed in 1919, a telegram arrives that demands action.  Leaving England, her career as a surgical nurse, and the fragments of a cracked heart behind, Emmaline Monroe returns to southern Wyoming to make peace with her dying father and her old life while also carving out a new future for herself and her six-year-old adopted daughter, Solange.

     Doctor Graham Harris’ well-conceived plans after the war fall apart with one misdirected letter. Holding on to the hope that it’s not too late, Graham embarks on a journey to recapture his dreams with little thought about the cost or sacrifice it will require.

     As a servant to the baron and baroness of Grey Rocks in northern England, Martin Blakely’s days had always been predictable and orderly.  When he is asked to accompany the baron’s son, Graham, on a life changing, headlong race to America, Martin’s world expands into a kaleidoscope of opportunities and choices he’d never imagined. 

The challenge for them all will be to learn to embrace the blessings they are offered.

In this welcome sequel to her novel Questioning Grace, author donna coulson takes us on an adventure through history and heart, exploring the changes and challenges life in Wyoming in 1919.

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Love isn’t always warm and fuzzy

 Yesterday the sermon at church was centered on I John 4:11-16.  John is talking specifically to believers and discussing how believers should live and treat other believers. To me, verse 11 is the crux of the matter here: “Since God so loved us, we aught to love one another.” Something our pastor said really resonated with me and that’s this – Since we love and serve an invisible God, all other believers and non-believers can see is God in us.  God becomes visible in the world by how we love others.  I need to read that idea over and over and think about it.  God only becomes visible when I show Him to others and the world through love.

That’s a heady responsibility, and one that believers through the years have both triumphed with but also failed miserably on.  Pastor used an example of the Matthew 18 principle to illustrate this.  He made the point that Matthew 18 was not intended to be a legalistic protocol for kicking people out of the church, but a series of helps to confront someone who has gotten off track and restore them to God’s righteousness and the church.  I absolutely agree. We must be vigilant to keep ourselves and the church aiming in the right direction and also careful not to ‘sweat the small stuff’.

When believers disagree, love needs to be the driving force, GOD’S love in us and through us, needs to be the driving force to a solution. Scripture needs to be searched, hearts opened, and TRUTH spoken. Love is required. It’s so important, though, to realize that sometimes love is hard.  Love speaks difficult truths.  Love isn’t always nice.  The perfect example, of course, is Jesus.  During His last week as a human, Jesus makes God visible to so many people by healing, by teaching, by explaining. He spoke hard Truth softly and with love. But look carefully.  He doesn’t make nice all the time, though He never stops loving…He turns over temple tables, He curses a fig tree for being unfruitful, He calls the Pharisees who try to trap Him about taxes “Hypocrites.”

Wait, what?  It isn’t loving or kind to call someone names.  How can it be that our Perfect Example tells us to love others but then He Himself calls another someone a hypocrite (or a brood of vipers, or snakes, or blind guides or blind fools)?

The reality is that Satan perverts our call to love by asserting that love demands tolerance and acceptance at all costs – even at the cost of Truth. Satan wants Christians to forget Jesus’ actions that don’t sit easily under the heading of ‘nice’. The devil wants us to pervert God’s righteousness by accepting false teachings and sinful acts and calling it love. Where the rubber meets the road is speaking Truth in love and not amending Truth to include everyone’s sin.

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